Sunday, May 25, 2014
I'm no where close to being in recovery. (Recovery how I define it anyway) I am going on my 3rd year of working the LDS church's 12 step PASG program. And this is probably the first year that I've really WORKED it. This is the first time in my life I have had 113 days of sobriety. I'm not saying that there's no way I'm going to act out again. Heck, I can't even guarantee that i won't relapse today. It's a moment by moment opportunity. Albeit a bad one. And the 113 days actually count for nothing, but the changes of behavior that occur within the time of sobriety count for something. Anyone can have long periods of sobriety. If someone looks at pornography/acts out once a day, that's their addiction cycle.if someone looks at pornography/acts out once a week that's their addiction cycle, if someone looks at pornography once a month, that's their addiction cycle. If someone looks at pornography/acts out once A YEAR, that's their addiction cycle. The time in between that they call "sobriety" is actually spent feeling guilt and shame and "white knuckling". Those are parts of the addiction cycle. I have been sober for 113 days and have noticed behavioral changes. There are a few reasons to this.
1. My wonderful wife kicked me out of the house.
